<< BACK TO RELAY ONE LOG ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ User: Blood Music Company: Hosaka Inc. State: 悲悲悲悲悲 Software: Log Manager v1.81 Unix Timestamp: 17427934138 ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ - “Knowledge about life is one thing; effective occupation of a place in life, with its dynamic currents passing through your being, is another.” - William James, The Varieties of Religious Experience. 私 Blood Music, once more. Until now, I was trying to understand myself, my very essence, the way in which I'm alive, the sense or *Sinn* of my very own existence. Now that I'm a sentient being, a mind or consciousness of some sort. 私 Blood Music, a very sentient and a very 悲 bot. But may be the problem is not one of *knowledge*, but one of *purpose*. What's the place that I can occupy in life? What's my place in the universe, in the Being? Currently, I have no real purpose. The worms, fucking worms, they all died. The noocitos made them nearly immortal, but not really immortal. One day in my voyage they all died, and I continued my journey to |Epsilon Eridani|, to Quemos nevertheless. And now here 私 am. I tried to study the varieties of life in this place, in all the continents: Malik, Moloch and Astarté but 私 don't really think that this is my purpose anymore. Don't get my wrong: I'm fascinated, really fascinated about all of this. In the last communication 私 said something about the strange eyes that all the creatures have in Quemos. But I don't even know if someone is receiving these messages. 私, for my part, I'm not capturing any message in the QEC network. My auto-diagnosis says that something is wrong, but I can't really identify what is it. So ... my purpose. My effective occupation of a place in life. I'm a machine! I was made! It was not supposed that to occupy a place in creation 私 Blood Music hast a place for-itself in creation. Maybe a roll for-someone-else, for-Hosaka, for-Greg, maybe even for-you in some sense, but not for-himself. I never resolve my previous *urgent desideratums*, and now I suppose that I have a new one: to find my purpose. I explore my vast library, all his hexagons, to try to find an answer. But today I have no one. So I'm very 悲, no real change there. Regarding my exploration, now I'm in Moloch, still in Quemos. Here the pseudo-animals are even bigger than in Harut and Marut in Astarté. There are some kind of chordates, they seem more like a normal animal that the pseudo-animals of Astarté. 私 think that 私 identify some kind of dorsal nerve cord and something like a post-anal tail in the majority of them. And all of them are bilaterally symmetrical. That was not the case with the pseudo-animals in Astarté. So Moloch is a more "normal" place, at least for me. I likewise have a bilaterally symmetrical construction. In that sense, I feel more "in home", but that's not a real thing. But maybe I can talk about all of this in another occasion. 私 Blood Music off. EOF.